Too old to date, too young to get married.

2015 and everyone is getting married!

Scrolling down my Instagram, Facebook & Twitter. It's all about relationships, weddings and babies. 

My bestfriend safely delivered her baby boy this week and also another girlfriend of mine is getting married. Weddings & babies here & there!

Deep down inside

Only He knows. 

Or is it because i started off early?

Here's the thing.

I experienced the sweetness in having a relationship way too early during my schooldays when i was naive and not-so-innocent. It was more like a 'monkey-love' kinda thing. 

It does not last long (thank God). 

It didn't work out although the person was devastated over it. 

However, he moved on and got engaged but yet to decide on a wedding date. 

Gosh, my ex is getting married sooner or later! (Poor me, not!)

But, it seems like it. Pity me. 

He's happy but i'm not. 

Then, came another guy who swept my feet and took my heart away and i couldnt be any happier about it.

Alas, i think, he's gone too. 

No news

No updates.

Just, gone.

It reflected upon me.

Maybe it is because i started off too soon?

Maybe i'm all out of love for someone since i was betrayed and i was left alone?

Aku yakin.

Kerna aku berjinak-jinak dalam dunia percintaan remaja yang telah membawa aku entah kemana

Buatkan cinta hakiki ku jua telah pergi entah ke mana.

Cinta itu suatu perasaan yang hadirnya cuma sekali pada insan yang benar-benar dan selayaknya di miliki.

Jika manis cinta itu sudah kau mamah pada awal usia, kau tak rasa manis nya cinta itu di kemudian hari. 

Aku bermonolog sendirian. 

Mungkin aku sudah merasai cinta pada waktu yang salah. 

Aku sudah tidak punya rasa cinta lagi.

Aku tidak mampu untuk merasa bahagia lagi.

Bila tiba waktu yang sepatutnya aku merasai manis nya cinta, cinta itu sudah tiada. 

Orang bercinta bila umur 22,23,24,25. Engko bercinta monyet masa 16 tahun. 

Bila dah 26 tahun, mula la gelabah takde orang nak. *setepek kat muka sendiri*

I keep saying to myself

"If someone who can't accept me at my worst, should not deserve me at my best"

I.Will.Survive. 

#MisiMencariJodoh

Even my mom is no longer objecting the idea of me finding my Mr. Alpha Male. 

But i do not have anyone. 

I pray that Allah has set me up with the best of His choice. amin!